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so i uh got this letter in the mail today from poetry.com. the letter stated that my lil morbid poem made the semi finals in a contest thing that i didnt know i entered. first prize gets a whole G. 2&3 get a niffty medal (im hoping for the medal) i posted that poem in here before and well no one responded to my amazing talent (ha im so modest). any way thats it oh and ive been doin digital stuff. so i you have any pix that you would like to be messed with just give me a holla and i'll see what i can create.
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[23 Mar 2002|12:45am] |
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i went to kirstens today, saw my manthony...i missed him dearly, it's good to see that kiddo again. i played my guitar for a while until i hurt my main finger on my left hand. so we just listened to some music and talked about stuff. glassjaw&deftones good combination for a song...and that song being "hover" great stuff. i was reminicing about when we were younger (ahahaha actually about a few years back) when we used to kick it outside and stare at the sky listening to music. i miss those days. things were cooler then well atleast i think so."Look it's a shooting star!...make a wish.::makes a wish:: baaaaaaallll game. hahaha remember that kiers? man those were some good times. ?Later Days?
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[19 Mar 2002|09:34pm] |
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so i created the new background last year it was a class assignment and i chose to do it on my favorite metal band ever! you guessed right...it is metallica. i also made the new icon in like 1 min. i was messing around and i rather like it. um...that's all i have for now...so ? Later Days ?
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[19 Mar 2002|07:14pm] |
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it's official...im an ebay junkie. that's all i do now, log on and go strait to ebay. ive even neglected my journal for a few weeks. there are so many cool things on ebay that i wish i could have. you know when you're an ebay junkie when you don't have the money by the day the auction ends. that's what happens with me i have to wait and pray that i come up with some money so that i can buy stuff. someone auctioned off a cool web cam it was a logitech clickster or something like that...it was like yours kiers but this one had flash so i guess it was a better version than yours...any who no body bid on it and it was only for $9.99 no reserve! i didn't bid on it cause i couldn't cover it. i have 2 other bids right now and i can only afford to cover one of em. sheesh why did they have to make online auctions so addicting? once again i say im an ebay junkie. i wonder if there's an ebay addicts community here in the lj world. oh well that's all i guess. oh wait I miss my manthony!! (for those of you who don't know he's my 2 y/o nephew currently on loan to my cousin kiers)
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[09 Mar 2002|12:52am] |
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Death by Stereo- Little Fighter |
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feelings oh what glorious feelings
things i do and say make people notice me
noticing the negative and avoiding the positive.
these people no longer exist in my head, my heart, my soul.
to live is to die and oh how i want those who have hurt me to die. feelings are what we use to confront our thoughts...
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[09 Mar 2002|12:47am] |
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My thoughts are serial killers. fiends that have destroyed me and will destroy you. with each thought a part of me fades away. i am but a shadow walking incoherently. gripping the hands of those around me...they don't feel my presence. i am but a lonely entity walking on this 3rd rock. living on a whim without order...disorder. first come first served, now without life there is no one left to serve. alone in this dimension i walk the fate of death.
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[09 Mar 2002|12:46am] |
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Rain cuts through the air like a razor blade through my skin. each drop staining the floor...I guide the sharp steel across my veins opening the gates of hell. at the twist of the blade and a twist of fate i survive. i should be on the floor loosing consciousness in a pool of blood. yet i stand here and admire my life pouring into the sink. it doesn't have to be like this, it never did. i made this happen...im the one who neglected my family, school, friends, and life itself.
Some days i wake up and wish that i hadn't woken up at all. i hear someone knocking at the door, i have to clean this up. cold water mixing with the deep red pool thinning it out to a light red. goodbye life, good bye hope, good bye dreams whirling down the drain. I'll see you again someday...maybe the next time when it rains.
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[05 Mar 2002|06:21pm] |
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At the doorstep of a new revelation. the heavy doors open on the fraction of a thought from my mind. on the other side the things we do are like a mirror into our souls. i stand here observing and i think what if... what if i hadn't been so shy, what if my mother loved me, what if i hadn't pulled that trigger. we're all stuck in a downward spiral of never ending hate. staring into my soul...i contemplate my life.
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[05 Mar 2002|03:35pm] |
Ok im addicted to ebay...i just spent 30 dollars that i don't even have! hell i dont even have one 4th of that. hahaha how im gonna pay it? who knows... that's where all my time has been going to lately. checking out all the pictures trying to find something that i like. i seriously need a life...either that or get laid. fuck that i'd settle for a girlfriend. yeah well not much else going on.
?later days?
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| What the fuck!! |
[01 Mar 2002|09:54am] |
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Damn Live Journal!!! i had written a whole bunch of good stuff in my last entry and it didn't come out....fuck fuckety fuck fuck fuck!! man it was cool to cause i wrote stuff and yeah. ok so im in class right now bored as hell. nothin to do...it's a 6 hour class and im just stuck here. we're supposed to have a test of some sort but nothins happenin' dammit all to hell!! someone get me outta here!! yeah so lastnight was really really crappy...no specific reason but just in general...as always. ok well i have nothing else to say. Later days...
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[28 Feb 2002|10:40pm] |
today's word is legs...let's go home and spread the word.
Ok so I haven't posted in a long time...I just feel like shit. I feel like the emoest kid right now but hell im no emo kid...not on my best day. I would do the things that kiers has done but that would just make things worse...well for me anyway(knowing how my mother is) but I feel soo enraged so sad...I wonder if this is what it feels like to have pms<hahahaha. but seriously i need someone a special female someone...so if you just happen to come across this in your random lj wanderings and you are a female please leave me a message and i'll get back to you as soon as possible <hahaha. don't be discouraged by what you read earlier it was just me feeling blah...we all feel blah sometimes so dont deny you dont. hahaha im going loony toony a lil bit cartoony. but seriously now i feel blah...i need some happyness...what female can help me?
?Later Days?
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| This sadness alone |
[17 Feb 2002|09:59pm] |
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Nothing to do...nothing to see...no one to be with. lately ive been writing stuff next to my drawings, they may not makes sense to people but i don't really give a rats ass. As the days pass, i think that i will write some of them here. ok well that's all i guess. ? later days ?
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[09 Feb 2002|12:19pm] |
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ok so i changed the background music, it's kinda lame cause it's a midi. but im gonna find a way to put actual audio. wait scratch that...i found a way but i just gotta do the editing and uploading, wich will take me a while...but hey now i have something to do.
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[06 Feb 2002|10:47pm] |
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Ok finally i update..i have been avoiding it cause nothing really exciting happend. so i let stuff accumulate...so here it is. the show on saturday was really awsome! bought me a tsunami bomb shirt, and ate jack in da box. my brother and i are in the process of putting performance parts into my sisters car. and i started modifying my journal abit more..i hope you all love my background music (if you cant hear it please leave me a message) it's metallica "one". um im going to this thing at fullerton tomorrow that should be pretty cool. go bowling and play pool and what not. ?later days?
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| Saturday dilema |
[29 Jan 2002|04:13pm] |
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ok so there's this awsome show on sat. and i really wanna go cause kiers is going and all the cool younger ppl in our fam. the thing is my moms birthday is tomorrow...and she's gonna have her party on saturday. i don't know whether to stay here and be with my mom...or go have fun with those crazy kids i call cousins. my head feels so blah, ive been thinking about this all day...
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[23 Jan 2002|03:02pm] |
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No use for a Name- Note your savior |
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ok well yesterday i got my thursday shirt in the mail...im so happy i looks awsome, and today i got my thursday buttons in the mail....one of em looks wrong but i don't care cause i only paid $2 for em so ha! ppl on ebay are buying em for $6 and up...no school today, so im relaxing listening to my fat wreck chords compilation cd..it's pretty awsome. kiers came over the other day and left her cd's here, she was distracted so i guess it could have happend to anyone. i dunno what else to say for today because ive just been talking jibberish so far so um....later days!
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A0001- Thursday |
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We'll all look the same someday, and even now the robot starts to think...I wonder what it dreams- Thursday
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[20 Jan 2002|04:44pm] |
Hey, i see you have braces...i have braces too. ok that was lame but i saw beavis and butt-head do america today. i hung out with v and cess and jen at the montebello mall today it was pretty fun...i got me an a.f.i. t-shirt pretty awsome. later we went to watch "orange county" pretty funny movie, it made me laugh alot. i created a new image today check it out... those are lyrics from various thursday songs just in case if you were wondering. um...that's all for today i guess...check you later.
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